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Mood Swings or No?
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Sometimes you are feeling so well mentally it’s like you can take on the world. You’re generous, extra helpful, extra attentive to peoples’ needs and so on and so forth (I’m talking in a professional environment.)

On other days it’s like no matter what you do you can’t catch a break. When it’s like that you can’t wait it to be over. You feel like the whole world may be against you, that it may even resent you for whatever reason. This rings especially true if you are obsessive about other peoples’ perception of you. I don’t know if that’s just a Gemini thing or human altogether.

I was once told that I’m a naturally “depressed / serious” person, and I did not argue against it (take the word “depressed” with a grain of salt, it’s not meant to be taken in the way it literally is). There was some truth in that statement. On my good days I can’t enjoy them 100% because I already anticipate that it won’t last long, and that sooner or later the moodiness will come back.

Speaking of moodiness, I don’t know if I should call it mood swings, or a mental health issue. I recently recognized that I wasn’t as mentally healthy as I could be. What I meant was I’m not as I wanted to be.

Which made me ask myself a whole bunch of questions I’d like your opinions on if you read this: Do people go through what I go through as described above? Is it inevitable that if you’re happy you’ll eventually not be the sooner or later? Is there even such a thing as happiness? Can you avoid the frustration / angry mood swings? How do you navigate through your bad days?

The beginning of an answer (I think), is doing what you enjoy doing. Or as Cardi B would say: “living your best life.” But then again what does that even mean? I’m also beginning to think that the saying “do what you love” is horses**t.

These are a few of the questions I had in mind on this Canada day 2018. I won’t be posting anything for the next twenty days at least, because I’ll be away from my laptop. Until then, see you.

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